welcome to my lair......
hey there! i'm jami lynne and welcome to jackass my blog!
(a panel from REAL by Takehiko Inoue, edited with lyrics from the song "Wind's Nocturne" from Lunar)
i don't think i have a gigantic Post in the oven right now, but i did want to wear this thing in with a bit of stream-of-consciousness/mission statement stuff with what this is!
everybody's saying it, but RIP forever to cohost. i don't have much to add that so many others haven't already expounded upon, but i will just say that it's rough out there. it's been a rough month for me separate from cohost, as on the day the announcement over there was made, that morning a very beloved member of my family passed away. so, i did what any grieving individual would do in that double situation: i instantly went to go make a new twitter account.
that wasn't a great idea, if you could somehow possibly believe it!
twitter was never a very healthy place for me. cohost was wonderful because it did help do a sizeable amount of decoupling in my brain of numbers = worth when it comes to social media posts. but honestly, the numbers part of twitter wasn't really the worst thing about it for me. the worst aspects of it manifested for me in a strange, frustrating sense of fomo: i'm not posting enough, i'm not being active enough on here, i should have more to say, i should have more i'm responding to. it's not about the numbers for me, it's about feeling the need to keep up.
for some reason, while i'm sure it was still there somewhat during dry spells, i never felt that compulsion on cohost. a few weeks into remaking a twitter though, it is extremely tragic to me just how quickly that negative "muscle memory" returned. so, like many others -- while it is not the best time in the world for me to try to learn HTML/CSS/how to make a proper RSS feed -- i want to try something different. a place i can post longform stuff.
cohost was nice because, in my own sort of stream-of-consciousness way, i pushed myself to actually think stuff out and write about it in a more extensive way than i had done in the past 15 years. there are a couple on there i had fun writing, some of which i'd like to port over here at some point soon before cohost itself disintegrates at the end of the year. my fav in particular was a big thing on Shin Megami Tensei, particularly trying to explore my frustrations with that series' idea of "neutrality". so that's something i'd like to do a bit more of here as well, as much as having little comments and affirmations is nice for me as a learning writer. yes i know i should be using capitalization more. but capitalization has bad vibes. i dunno what to tell ya.
but i think cohost had a lot to do with me finding at least small footholds of confidence with my writing, such that this summer i finally released a prologue story for my visual novel series, project LUNAFAIRY. i have always had a chip on my shoulder about how i'm not a writer and i could never put together a story that moves people, but at the end of all of that i still find myself really proud of what i was able to do in ~blood of god~ LUNAFAIRY, and all the more excited to feel out what's next in that world.
i've had the next TWO entries of LUNAFAIRY very fresh in my brain for years now, so i hope everyone is ready for some vampiric yaoi and rave heartbreak in the coming future.
so yeah! i guess i'd like to put all sorts of writing here. it feels like a nice, low-stakes place to do it. i want to put similar critique as to what i've done on cohost, and also just kind of spitball self-indulgently about LUNAFAIRY stuff too. maybe there's a way on bearblog to separate that stuff out. i'll figure it out in due time.
in the meantime, thanks for reading, thanks for stopping by. plug me into your RSS reader or w/e. and let me know on the bad websites (TWITTER + BLUESKY) if anything doesn't work or if you just have general kindness to share with me. see ya!